ok this is... not really torment. not frustration also. more like... confusion? feel so buffeted by externals.
lolz heard a passing comment today... studying = students + dying. such a nice wordplay. but it's not that bad la... i mean it's sian but ugh. ok stress has many forms. studying just ain't my worst.
it's so hard to spend time alone with ppl nowadays. everyone's hustling and bustling, with groups of ppl and activities that never pause. it's hard to find quality time... treasure all the little chats that happen so rarely. deeply appreciate each of my family members for making the time for this. lolz my sis comes to my room and just lounges on my bed, my bro that dates me, my dad that goes breakfast with me, my mum that comes to my room to chat and all the impt time we spend chatting in the car when she sends me to and fro.
traveling is one of the times where ppl connect most easily... on the bus, ppl can't really do anything else apart from talk, think and dream. i used to abhor time wasted on traveling too but i learnt to realize that my flashes of insight came so often when i was on the bus... and so many nice chats i've had with friends just occurred while we were walking, on the mrt or on a bus. spending time with a group of close ppl, and spending time one to one with a person is just such amazingly different experiences. not that one or the other is better... just different.
think with msn around, many of us just resort to msn. yes i mean 'resort' with the full derogative connotations that it entails. behind faceless anonymity, deluded by a sense of security, we get so easily mislead. msn gives us breadth, but can we attain depth thru it? maybe it can be a powerful building block but i doubt it can ever be a foundation stone.
we had an interesting chat during cat class this week... about setting aside time for ourselves. lolz for most of the class, this time was just during traveling to or from school. but even then, many people just said that time wasn't spent thinking/reflecting but just stoning. up till now, i'm still trying to understand the concept of stoning. dont' think i'm anywhere closer to getting it until i actually learn to do it myself.
anthony then suggested that ppl might be unwilling to confront their own thoughts. wow. such an alien concept. ok must expound on this another time.
so aware that this is exactly the kind of post that would warrant unpleasant responses again. but apprehension will get me nowhere and besides, as he said, i guess i should not be hindered. as long as i have no malice, i should feel no guilt.
Name: Foo Guo Zhong Melvyn
Age: 19+
Affiliations: MSHS (Pri), Rosyth, RI, RJC, SFX (LoG)
Bday: 14th Nov
Email: mel_protoss@hotmail.com
ok this is... not really torment. not frustration also. more like... confusion? feel so buffeted by externals.
lolz heard a passing comment today... studying = students + dying. such a nice wordplay. but it's not that bad la... i mean it's sian but ugh. ok stress has many forms. studying just ain't my worst.
it's so hard to spend time alone with ppl nowadays. everyone's hustling and bustling, with groups of ppl and activities that never pause. it's hard to find quality time... treasure all the little chats that happen so rarely. deeply appreciate each of my family members for making the time for this. lolz my sis comes to my room and just lounges on my bed, my bro that dates me, my dad that goes breakfast with me, my mum that comes to my room to chat and all the impt time we spend chatting in the car when she sends me to and fro.
traveling is one of the times where ppl connect most easily... on the bus, ppl can't really do anything else apart from talk, think and dream. i used to abhor time wasted on traveling too but i learnt to realize that my flashes of insight came so often when i was on the bus... and so many nice chats i've had with friends just occurred while we were walking, on the mrt or on a bus. spending time with a group of close ppl, and spending time one to one with a person is just such amazingly different experiences. not that one or the other is better... just different.
think with msn around, many of us just resort to msn. yes i mean 'resort' with the full derogative connotations that it entails. behind faceless anonymity, deluded by a sense of security, we get so easily mislead. msn gives us breadth, but can we attain depth thru it? maybe it can be a powerful building block but i doubt it can ever be a foundation stone.
we had an interesting chat during cat class this week... about setting aside time for ourselves. lolz for most of the class, this time was just during traveling to or from school. but even then, many people just said that time wasn't spent thinking/reflecting but just stoning. up till now, i'm still trying to understand the concept of stoning. dont' think i'm anywhere closer to getting it until i actually learn to do it myself.
anthony then suggested that ppl might be unwilling to confront their own thoughts. wow. such an alien concept. ok must expound on this another time.
so aware that this is exactly the kind of post that would warrant unpleasant responses again. but apprehension will get me nowhere and besides, as he said, i guess i should not be hindered. as long as i have no malice, i should feel no guilt.